The boring person

 I don't have many friends. Well, I do have three people whom I trust and a few who I think is close to me at some point.

But on one of my girl's nights, I noticed it's boring for me. Things are boring most of the time. I am not into discussing some things like astrology, religion, or coronavirus with most people. In fact, coronavirus is the topic I have energy and knowing I'll be understood to discuss with two of them. 

Talking about business with the gf is boring because I've done this many years ago. Listening to the dreams she had and things they have a special meaning. Tbh I'm so tired of being among people whom I don't understand.

The roots of not wanting to go out with them are not only my anxiety. It's also my boriness and that I feel like exchanging my precious time on people I don't find the pleasure of being around with. 

I would really like to go on a date with myself. What I do like is going shopping. It gives me chill.

So do I have to feel guilty for not going out with certain people? Most definitely not.

Do I deserve to spend time with my most loved person in the world, myself? Most definitely yes.

I am a boring woman and I am not embarrassed to admit it.